Look How Far You’ve Come…

Posted: April 18, 2011 in anxiety, healing

Another week down, and sometimes it’s really gratifying to just reflect on how far I’ve come in the past year or so. The last month has been a really amazing journey that has both reminded me of just how much I’ve overcome and given me a lot of hope when I think about where I’m going. It’s really amazing to see things finally coming full circle. It has been not only a big step in the healing process, but a big step toward starting a new chapter in my life that has been a while in coming.

Everything has been going amazing with the band, and sometimes I have to stop for a minute to remind myself that it’s only been a few weeks. In fact, it will be a month this coming Wednesday. Things are going so smoothly that sometimes it seems like I must have been doing this for a lot longer. We have about 20 songs memorized, and a bunch more on the table. We’re already talking about booking shows, and everything that comes along with this whole process.

More than anything, I love the group dynamic of this band. I love feeling like part of the group, and I love how we work together. I love that all of the people in my band are people that I’ll be glad to have in my life as friends down the road. …hopefully on the road… I love the opportunity I have to learn and develop as a singer and a performer.

It’s a great testament to how much work I’ve done in the last few years and how far I’ve come that things are running so smoothly. I’ve been able to keep my anxiety and emotions in check for the most part, and it’s very rewarding to see how putting these new skills into practice pays off in real life settings and not just in my therapist’s office. Everyone else in the band has commented on how much better the group dynamic is now that I’ve joined the band, and how much more they enjoy coming to practice now. We as a group genuinely enjoy each others’ company, and that contributes to getting more accomplished in a practice.

It has been a long time since I have been this genuinely excited about anything…I can’t wait to see what is in store next. The funny thing is, I’m not even as nervous as I would have expected, because I have this amazing support network right there with me to help me through it. It’s an awesome feeling.

  1. CortneyPants says:

    WOOO!!!! GO LADYPANTS!!!!! *jumping and screaming!!* 🙂

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